And that’s when I realized, I don’t miss you… I miss our conversations.

40% - Asshole

10% - Friend

15 % - Confused

5% - Punk

10% - Hopeless Romantic

10% -Doesn’t give a fuck

5% - Gives too much of a fuck

5% - idk

I did so much for you.
I listened to every word you’d say.
I would facetime you the second you’d come to me saying you were about to cry. I put my life aside for you. I put my friends aside for you. Not to mention, I love you. Yet you hate me. You honestly hate me. I’ve gone through hell and back with you. And you hate me. If I were to kill myself right now, you would honestly not give a fuck. You’d probably throw a party, and dance on my grave. Yet you still don’t know why I’m “acting weird”.
Stop acting. Just tell me the fucking truth. You hate my guts. You rub it all in my face. You’re killing me. And you’re about to get exactly what you wanted.

You’re welcome

Imma splatter my conscience across the cement.

“I cut my wrist and play piano because I’m so depressed”

I miss the days when you’d put in the 2 seconds to ask “Are you okay?”

What happened to that?

One minute you’re worrying and helping, the next you’re accusing and criticising. It’s like I’m buried alive, and you frantically try to dig me up… But once you find me you just laugh and fill the grave back up again.

I just want positive things…. Please. Please please please please please.
I can’t take anymore negativity. Please give me something positive.

I’m so sad. I feel nothing but depression and fear. I can’t go to sleep because I’m scared to wake up to another awful day. I’m sad because I know it’s gonna happen. I just need something positive to happen to me. I just need that…. That’s all I need.

I wish I didn’t give a shit

Sorry for all the self-harm shit. So… Yeah. I should have tagged it as a trigger or something… But whatever. I’m sorry.

You know what I hate? Gender roles.

And no I don’t hate them because I want to do girl things (and to you boys that do, keep doing it.. you rock). I just hate the expectations people have to go through because they’re a guy or a girl. Not all girls like pink, or want to play with dolls and wear dresses and have really long hair. Not all guys want to play video games or sports, have a lot of muscle and brag about body hair. Just because you’re a girl doesn’t mean you have to serve for the man in your life.. fortunately a lot of you girls know that. But guys.. just because you’re a guy doesn’t mean you have to provide, or be what all these girls (or guys) want.

BE WHO YOU WANT TO BE!

NOT who your parents want you to be. NOT who your crush wants you to be. NOT who your friends want you to be. Your parents do it because they think it’s best.. but they’re just as human as you are.. that means they can be just as incorrect as you can. If your crush or friends don’t like what they see, fuck them. They don’t like you for who you are, they like you for what they want you to be. Don’t live off of their opinions. There’s always people out there that will accept you for you. Don’t ever change anything about you to match what you see on the TV or big screen. That’s not who you’re supposed to be. You’re supposed to be you. No matter your gender, religion, skin color, or sexual orientation. You are you.

((I know… I know. It’s all really cliche. Sorry just ignore me. I’m just rambling on))

I feel like a useless hated piece of shit guys. Byeeeeeee.

Does anyone else wish they could just fade out of the public eye and just have a select group of people in there lives? And leave everyone else’s attention behind? Or is that just me?

I’m in love.